Sunday, July 31, 2011

Visitor Overload

Our sweet Noah is home and we are so happy to have him here. I just can't get over how much I love him. I swear every time I look at him more love for him fills my soul. I love watching Sean with him too. He is just such a proud daddy. He has the most sweet and silly conversations with him. Sean and I are loving getting to know Noah more and seeing his personality come out. Everyone says that Noah just looks like his daddy and doesn't really look like me. Jessica made me feel much better when she pointed out that Noah does actually have my chin and could possibly have my eyes. Life at home has been full of an array of feelings and emotions. Mostly happiness and love but mixed in there occasionally there has been frustration, sleepiness, overwhelmed, and scared. 

When we first got home from the hospital we just enjoyed staring at Noah and telling him about fun things we will do with him and letting him know how much we love him. We ate dinner and then put Noah down for a nap. Then the "baby blues" set in for the first time. Many women, after having a baby, experience the baby blues. This is a biochemical reaction to giving birth. The high levels of hormones that were there  during pregnancy are now crashing back to normal levels, and then screwing with your emotions. Symptoms are: feeling teary, anxious or upset, overwhelmed. The discharge nurse told me it would set in about the 3rd or 4th day after delivery and can last for 10 to 14 days. If it exceeds that then I would need to call my doctor because that would mean it was actually postpartum depression not the normal baby blues. Postpartum depression is a severe, long-lasting form of depression. I know that I don't have postpartum depression because I'm not mad and I don't have any bad feelings of hurting myself or my baby. I just get anxious or overwhelmed occasionally. I think its most due to the surroundings not necessarily the hormones. So now that you know what baby blues are. When we got home and we put Noah to sleep I just looked around the living room and started to cry. I was overwhelmed by how cluttered things are and also a little scared at the idea of taking care of a newborn. Sean said he was a little scared too and that it is normal. He held me and stroked my face and I felt better after a couple minutes.

We are currently sleeping on the hide-a-bed in the living room with Noah in the dinning room in a bassinet due to the nursery still not being done. Good news is that the restoration people are coming tomorrow to get it done then Jessica is coming over Tuesday to help us get the room all in order. We were going to try to put the bassinet in our bedroom but there just isn't any room for it in there. I didn't like the idea of having Noah out in the dinning room or living room and us all the way in the back of the house, so the hide-a-bed is the best second option. I cleaned the day after being home and I felt better about the clutter. Everything is still in the living room until Tuesday but at least its all organized into one corner now.

Then the next issue that caused some stress and frustration occurred last night. We have had so many visitors come see Noah since he was born that we think it stressed his poor little body out and it messed up his sleep schedule. He was sleeping through the night with just an hour interruption every 3 hours for feeding and this made it nice for Sean and I to get good sleep. Then last night this was all thrown out of wack. The past two days of being home Sean and I haven't had more than an hour or so alone with Noah. Friends and family have been here constantly to meet him and get to know him. We are so happy that Noah is loved by so many and we want them to meet him but also we need our time to bond with our baby. We realized last night after not getting any sleep, that it was a must to cut off visitors for a couple days so that we can all get rest including Noah. We felt so bad for him. We knew he was tired and wanting to sleep but he was just so over stimulated and couldn't get to sleep. He just wanted to be held all night. Also he kept wanting to eat every hour to an hour and half. Sean and I got so frustrated, not at all at Noah, just at ourselves for letting him get so overwhelmed and stressed that he couldn't sleep. We felt like we had failed our sweet Noah. It was due to the sleep deprivation that we were so upset. We said a prayer and Sean gave me a blessing so I could be comforted. We then talked about how we will make it a priority to have alone time with Noah and also that we will only allow one or two visitors a day for awhile so we don't have this happen again. Also we decided that the next day, today, we would not have anyone over at all so we can all recover. So far so good. Noah started calming down early this morning about 4am he finally dozed off and so did Sean and I. Then he stayed asleep for 3 hours straight and woke up for his breakfast. All day he has been sleeping in between each feeding and has been awake for some of it as well to play. He is so small so by play I mean, stare at us and watch us talk to him while we watch him make silly faces and look adorable. It has been a really relaxing day for all of us. Sean says that even though last night was really tough that he feels like it brought him and I closer and that Heavenly Father will give us the help we need to be good parents. I just love being a mommy :) Its the best thing I could ever do.

Now for some cute pictures of Noah baby <3

 I was talking to him when he turns his head up and sucks on my nose. haha The little guy was apparently hungry.
 After a full tummy, he dosed right off

Sleepy time

Noah peed on Daddy haha
 Daddy and Noah having a deep philosophical conversation

Mommy and Daddy admiring how very cute our little Noah is. 

I'm so excited for the guys to come over and do the nursery tomorrow though and finally have Noah's nursery done again! Also coming up is Noah's first doctor's appointment this Tuesday morning.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Andrea's Notes during the Labor

During the labor Andrea wrote down in her notebook some of the things that were said and a timeline of things that happened in the delivery room.

3:17pm *sits up* "I have to poop"

3:21pm Sean: Are you comfortable?  Deana: *in a calm voice* No, . . I'm in labor

3:21pm Brittany- "I'm gonna cry"  Amanda- "I'm so proud of Deana. She's doing so good"

3:23pm Dialated to 8cm Still hiccuping even in labor

"her hair still looks good. Makes me mad" - Amanda

3:26pm Seana- "Do you need anything?  Deana- "I need to poop"

Amanda- "You're doing so good, Deana!" "She's staying so calm"

"ohh, ok I'm peeing"- Deana

 3:31pm Deana- "I need to push"

3:32pm Nurse- "Wanting to push more?"  Sean- :yeah, A lot more"

3:34pm Nurse calls Dr. Clintsky

3:37pm Dr preps for delivery

3:38pm "I just don't care" Deana

Doctor- "Dad would you like to cut the umbilical cord?" Sean- "uh yes please"

Mama Rogers- "Sean I knew you were awesome"

Dr. Finds out water hasn't broke yet and moves out of the way to the right.

3:48pm  Dr. broke the waters

Sean- "There's no more water in the way. Now it's just baby. "

Nurse talking about c-sections in the background. Deana- "I don't want a c-section"
Nurse- "oh sorry sweetie, not you, not you."

*After a couple more pushes* Deana- "Can you just pull him please?" Mama Rogers - "No it doesn't work that way sweetie"

Deana- "I think I farted, sorry guys"

Mama Rogers- "You become a mom today"

Deana- "come out please"

Red goop comes from vagina* Mama Rogers "It looks like strawberry jam." Sean- "yeah it does, think about that next time you're eating toast" Amanda, Andrea and Brittany- "gross"

Mama Rogers- "we can see his head baby girl"

Deana- "ok pull him out", "tell him to stop going back inside please"

4:15pm Episiotomy

4:20pm Noah Scott Howell born

Soon after: Deana- "That didn't hurt too bad"

Noah was put on mommies chest right away. Deana tried breastfeeding. Deana to Noah "you can get it. Its yummy. Want some milk?"

Deana again to Noah- "mommy worked so hard for you"

First diaper change- 4:54pm

5:11pm Noah first blessing to calm him and get his temp higher, he was too cold

5:50pm Sean held Noah for the first time. (Deana had him the whole time before this other than nurses to clean and weigh him) Noah was stressed and not breathing right. Needed body warmth. Sean took his shirt off and held Noah to his chest for skin to skin.

Super Daddy

In case you didn't already know, Sean is pretty much amazing at everything he does. He is the perfect husband and now he is the perfect Daddy. My whole family has told me so many times this past couple days how impressed they are with him. He is just so caring to me and baby Noah. Some things that Mom, Andrea, Brittany and Amanda have said to me about Sean and also things that I have noticed and seen:

I loved seeing him during the labor. He would occasionally scan the room in a protective manner making sure everything was alright.

When the doctor said Noah's temp was too low a couple hours after the birth and you were up going to the bathroom Sean right away took his shirt off and held Noah skin to skin to get him warm.

Every time Noah needs anything he is the first to get up with out being asked

He sits and has real conversations with Noah and just lets him know how much he loves him

Noah was really stressed and wasn't eating and his breathing hadn't gotten normal yet at 5:11pm so Sean gave him a blessing.

Every time Sean leaves the room Noah is in he kisses him goodbye

Sean sits with mommy during breastfeedings so he can bond with us both

He takes care of the diapers so mommy can sleep

He comforted me the first night home when the hormones hit in and I was scared and stressed. He just told me that I was doing great and that he loves me and so does Noah and everything will be just fine.

He just loves Noah so much! And he loves me and I love him and Noah and there is just so much love in this house its amazing :)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Noah looks just like Daddy

 This is Sean when he was born. 6lbs 3oz, 20 in long
Noah 6lbs 2oz 19in long

The arrival of Noah Scott Howell

He is here!!! I can't believe it! Sean and I have a baby and they just let us take him home. Its so crazy, wonderful, exciting, a little scary, and all the other good things. First off. He is just perfect in every way. He has the most cute little coo and even his cry is just adorable. Its not even a real cry. Just kind of a hyena laugh. We are both in love with him. <3 So you want details? I can give you details. I'm not shy at all. Here is how it all went down.

Tuesday July 26th at 6:06am I awoke to an unpleasant feeling in my tummy. I at first thought that I had to poo. So I got up and tried but to no avail. I then laid back in bed because I still had a couple more minutes til I needed to wake up for work.Then about 15 minutes later I had that unpleasant feeling again. That time I knew that poo was not the culprit. I nudged Sean and told him that I think I had a contraction and that I'm in labor. His response, "oh ok" and he rolled over and went to sleep. He said to me later that he reasoning was that he knew it was going to be a long day and he should get his rest. haha He is so funny when he is sleepy. Then 15ish minutes I had another one. I decided that they didn't hurt to bad so I could go to work and see how they progress. I only have a few precious days of PTO saved up that I intended for maternity leave. I did not want to risk not going to work due to false labor. So I got ready for work and kissed Sean goodbye. He said to me "let me know how things progress. I love you." And he kissed my tummy.  On the way to work I called Amanda, my sister, and explained what I was feeling. I told her that it was a sharp pain in the bottom of my uterus and up the sides and I could feel my stomach tighten. She confirmed that's what labor feels like and that I was in fact in labor. I got to work at 7:39am and they were about 10 minutes apart still. I informed my boss that I would be leaving when they got too bad for me to be there. I did my work for the morning, which involves printing batches, standing at the stuffing machine and putting checks in. The whole  time there I was texting Sean, Amanda and Andrea letting them know how I was and how far apart the contractions were. At 9am they were 7 minutes apart. Sean, Andrea and Brittany came to pick me up from work and take me home to labor there. They contractions were becoming more intense but I could still talk during them and move a little as well. When I got home Andrea and Brittany started to get a pretty (because they knew pictures were going to be take once he was born so they needed to look cute haha) Amanda called and let me know she was also getting pretty. This is funny because when she had her baby Andrea and I took forever getting ready for the same reason. So any way, I labored at home until about 12pm when the contractions where getting more intense and consistently 5 minutes apart. While I was home Sean held my hand, gave me water to drink, helped me move to the bathroom and all the other wonderful coaching things he and I learned in our Bradley class. I mostly sat on the toilet and leaned on the couch during contractions. Sean was so great at timing the contractions and letting me know when another one was coming so I could get in a comfortable position. By comfortable I mean, didn't hurt as much as it could have had I been in a different position. I also laid on the couch for a couple of the contractions as well and had Sean stroking my hair.

I even fell asleep in between some of the contractions. Sean kept telling me that I was doing so great and that gave me the strength to keep going.

When my contractions got to 5 minutes Andrea and Brittany grabbed the hospital bag and my other things while Sean helped me into the car. Car labor is the worst! There is no way you can get comfortable. Luckily the hospital is only 14 minutes away so I only had a couple contractions on the way there. We went into triage and I had the vaginal exam. I was 4 cm dilated and 100% effaced. The nurse took my vitals and said I could labor there for a while and get to 5cm so I could be admitted. The contractions were really intense by then. The nurse was really impressed by how I was dealing with them. I was quite during every one of them and just counted them out in my head. I knew there were lasting 60 seconds so it was comforting to know when it end was coming. Sean let me squeeze his fingers and he had Jenny Phillips music playing for me. I think the combination of Sean's love, his encouragement, the spirit brought by Jenny Phillips music, the control felt from knowing when the contractions where going to end and pure concentration that got me through each contraction. Also I knew that with each one the cervix was opening more and that I was that much closer to having my Noah here with me. Sean tells me that while we were in triage the nurse said that I've obviously taken classes and how impressed she was with my concentration and control. I labored in triage for awhile (Sean and I can't remember how long but we just know it all went by so fast) Most of my contractions were in a lunge position with my right knee pushed up against the toilet, right hand on the toilet seat propping me up, left hand holding a steal bar on the wall and my left leg lunged out to the far left. Sean had his hand on my back and held my hand during them. Then when the contraction would end I sat on the toilet until Sean told me the next one was coming and I would move back into my lunge position. This is one of the TMI moments: It was nice to be on the toilet in between each one because I had to pee after every one of them. Sean was giving me lots of water to keep me hydrated. At one point I got back on the bed so the nurse could give me an exam and she did my blood pressure and it was really high. She said it could be a sign of preclampsia and that would mean I would have to be on a IV and have blood drawn. I got myself calmed down enough for the next two blood pressure tests though and it went down to normal. I did throw up during one of contractions because it was so very overwhelming.

I had a couple more of those overwhelming contractions and I was dilated to 6cm and ready to be admitted. Walking down the hall was pretty hard but we got there. I had to stop during one contraction and grab onto the railing on the wall. I even accidentally pushed during it because it hurt so bad. I told the nurse and she said that it was ok but not to do it again or I could bruise my cervix but that its natural to want to push when its that much pressure.  Sean texted the girls, meaning My Mom, Sean's Mom, Amanda, Andrea and Brittany, that they can come to the room.

This is them looking cute whilst I'm laboring away. Beautiful group of women that gave me support and love. I honestly didn't even notice them very much during the labor because I was pretty zoned into myself and Sean and baby Noah. I did see them shuffle in, in between a contraction and knowing that they were there was comforting. I had my eyes closed during most of the labor and only opened them a couple times. Andrea told me later that Brittany was crying and was just amazed at what was happening. Amanda kept praising me and saying how well I was doing. Andrea wrote down all the important things that happened (when I was fully dilated, water breaking, pushing started) and some things that were said during. I'll put what she wrote on here after I finish what I remember. I'm so happy that I was able to do it completely drug free because I have a better recollection of things that went on and I felt more in control. So I was at 6cm dilated when I got into the room. I had more contractions and felt like I needed to push. I really really felt like I needed to poop too! It was really bad. But they kept telling me that I couldn't push yet. I didn't yell or scream at all but I did at one point during the strong longer contractions make a low, soft grunt sound. All the while Sean was by my side holding my hand telling me how much he loves me and how we get to meet Noah soon. I asked one more time if I could push and they checked me and saw that I was completely dilated to a 10 and that I could start pushing! That was liberating!! I was so happy to be able to get the show on the road. Oh and my Doctor actually didn't make it to the delivery. I had to have the other Dr that was on call because Dr Hazelrigg wasn't on until 6pm. It was 3:45pm when I started pushing. The Dr was at the front on the bed and then was informed that my waters had not broke yet. She then moved to the left. Even in the state of pain I could appreciate the humor in that. I had a couple more contractions with pushing but still the waters were intact. She then asked if I was interested in having her break them for me and that if I did the labor would progress faster. I tried pushing 2 more times with no avail and then said for her to break it. Mom came and held my leg while Sean held the other as I pushed. I was pushing and I didn't feel like I was having much progress. I just felt like I had a really big poop that would not come out. TMI, again, I know. But this is a labor story, if you don't like it you are in the wrong blog. Turns out I actually did poop a little as well. I knew it! haha Sean told me that he could see Noah's head but that it slipped back up the canal after I stopped pushing. I asked if they could just pull him out and my mom said every so sweetly "no honey thats not how it works". The Dr asked if I wanted to be cut (Also known as an episiotomy)  I thought about it for two pushes and then said yes just cut me. She did and right away with the next push Noah then made his way into the world. The Dr made a comment about how fast it went and that it was a text book delivery with no pain medication. Everything went perfectly. I was in labor for 10 hours and only pushed for 35 minutes of that. Noah Scott Howell was born July 26th 2011 at 4:20pm. He weighed 6lbs 2oz, 19in long.

 Do I look tired? I so was!! Oh my goodness. But oh so happy as you can see. Sean is a proud Daddy too!!
 Me pushing with mom and Sean supporting my legs. Glad the Doctors head is positioned where it is. haha
Noah was tired too! He had a long day of being pushed!!
 Sean holding my hand and whispering to me 

 Thats my "ow" face

 Grandmas watching the work

 Yes i know, very attractive. This blog is real,  so I'm fine with the ugly pictures to show my hard work.

 This is right after Noah came out. I just look so relieved. Its because I am 

 Look! Its a baby! We made that! 

 Brittany was so happy to be apart of it all, and Happy Grandma holding her
 Skin to skin right away. I love that he is holding daddy's finger

After me holding him for an hour they took him to get him weighed and measured just across the room while I watched
 Happy Grandma holding baby Noah

 Another Happy Grandma!

 Cousin Cortney holding Noah. She just loves him and thinks he is hers 

 My dad got done with work finally and made it to see him about an hour and a half after he was born Happy Grandpa

 Auntie Drea

 Auntie Brittany, she also thinks this is her baby haha

 The sisters! I wish my sister Robyn could be there as well. She sadly lives in Wyoming. She is also preggers! Expecting Sept 11th a little boy.

Proud Daddy! Noah just loves his daddy so so much!

 Flowers the Ward girls sent us. I mean ward as in a last name not from our ward at church.
 Our Favorite nurse from our hospital stay. She was so sweet and helped us with breastfeeding, swaddling, and pretty much anything we needed. 

 Noah in his going home outfit. We stayed until Thursday the 28th because the first night he didn't eat enough and was a bit jaundices. Then Wednesday he wasn't able to get circumcised because the pediatrician wasn't there. He got circumcised Thursday. He did really well! We have such a tough little guy. The doctor said that he didn't even cry during the procedure and he didn't cry when they brought him back either. He was only gone for about a half hour. He latched right on for his feeding a couple minutes later too. Guess that smashes all the theories that circumcision messes with bonding and breastfeeding.  He is a champ feeder! At first he was having a hard time catching on to breastfeeding. He would thrust his tongue at my nipple and push it out as he was trying to suck and he was only getting the tip of my nipple and smashing it. That didn't feel too good, to say the least. We had to supplement with formula a couple times the first night because he wasn't getting enough from me since he was latching on wrong. We used a shield, which is a plastic cover thing that suctions the nipple out and helps babies to latch on the right way, and he did great. He is now having regular feedings and we don't have to supplement with formula. yay!
This is our happy little family.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Plumbing and Date Night

The plumbing is finally done! . . . Well mostly done. The plumbers came yesterday morning at 8am and were there til 9pm and got it all done in one day!! Amazing right?! They were so nice and worked really hard to get it done as fast as possible. So all the pipes in the house are completely replaced now. The only work that is left to do is the drywall they had to rip out to get to the pipes and the restoration of the nursery. The drywall guy is coming on Monday to do his part. The nursery drywall and the carpet however are being done by the restoration people though the insurance and they unfortunately won't be here until about Tuesday or Wednesday. I'm still so happy because it is so close to being finished. The house is so messy right now and I surprisingly don't care... ok well I care a little. How can you not care when your house looks like this?...

 This is a picture of the pipe outside. Its so pretty. You never realize how blessed you are until you have something taken away from you. I always took for granted clean running water and just thought of it as a part of regular life. Its hard to think that many people in the world don't have that luxury.
The water is so clear it looks like stream water. I took a shower last night and for the first time in weeks I felt super clean afterward. I really surprised Sean when we came home and I wasn't freaking out about how messy the house was. I was just fine with it. I know that it will soon be all clean and orderly and this is just a step to getting it there. While the plumbers were working we decided to go to dinner and the movies. It was so loud with all the work and no running water does not go well for a very pregnant woman that has to pee every hour.
This was our delicious meal at Paradise Bakery. Frozen strawberry lemonade and chicken salads. Sean got some berry salad and I had caesar salad. This diet he is on right now has surprisingly been really good for him. Did I tell you all about that yet? I don't think I did. Sean had been having some mood swings and was very bloated the past couple months and we didn't know why. He went to the doctor and she told him that he could possibly be allergic to something and that is what causes his symptoms. (side note, who knew a food allergy can cause mood swings? Its true though I looked it up) The doctor told him that the culprit could be either Dairy, Gluten or Eggs. So to find out which one, if any, she had him take all three out of his diet for 3 weeks. That means Aug 5th he will go back to see her and she will check out how he is doing. Then she will put one of them back in his diet and see how he reacts. If he has a negative reaction than its most likely due to that item. It has been really tough to plan meals around this diet. It seems that everything has either eggs, dairy or gluten in it. Granted there are some very yummy foods that don't. It has opened Sean up to new foods he wouldn't otherwise eat every much of. He is much more healthy now and feels much better. We are both hoping that he isn't actually allergic to any of those items and that maybe his body just needed a break from the overload of them. Sean and I both LOVE milk. We usually go though a gallon every other day just the two of us. So it would be killer for him to not be able to have it for longer than this month he is cut off. We shall see though.

After dinner we went to the movies and saw Captain America in 3D. It wasn't worth it to see it in 3D but that was the only one showing at the time we were there. It was a really good movie! I recommend it to everyone to see.I actually only ended up needing to pee once during the movie. I did fall asleep during part of it because I was so tired. Nothing against the movies as I stated above it was a really awesome one.

 Us in our cool glasses :) Yes you can say it... We are cute <3

Friday, July 22, 2011

Yay! Progress!!

The plumber came yesterday and looked at the work that needed to be done. Now he is at the house as I type working on the pipes!! He said it should be done either by the end of the day today or tomorrow. WA-HOOOOO!!!!  Then the restoration can start Monday and we can put our nursery back together and the rest of the house will be in order as well :) I am so elated.

No baby yet. I'm still holding him in. haha not really. I have pretty much no control of when that happens. Every time my sister Amanda calls me or I call her she asks me if I'm in labor yet. Its pretty funny. I've decided that every time I call her I'm going to send her a text first letting her know I'm not in labor but I am just calling her to talk.

In something not related to anything at all in this post. Sean sent me 2 funny text the other day I must share. I was having a bad day at work so to cheer me up he sent me this:

"You are stressed. Think about your adventures in wonderland for a while. You will forget all of your problems."

"Actually how about you make up a story about 2 dogs discovering the lost city of Atlantis. It has to be a children's story and there has to be an evil penguin in it. His name is Rupert. Go."

It just made my day how silly he is. Oh I love that man. <3

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Baby Time Clock Ticking

We had another doctor appointment today. I had a vaginal exam and found out that I am 3cm dilated and 90% effaced. Dr Hazelrigg said that he wouldn't be surprised if I went into labor 1 or 2 weeks early. That could be next week! Crazyness!! I might not though. Women have been 3cm dilated for weeks before going into labor though so we will just see. I have been having contractions for the last couple days as well. I am so torn. I would love to go into labor soon and just have my little Noah here in my arms already but also the financial side of things weighs in and I want to wait til the 10th so I can have the maternity money.  Good thing I have no control over it so I don't have to worry about it. I am at peace with whenever Noah decides to come. Even if the nursery isn't done yet and if we won't have the money right away. Heavenly Father will make it happen when it is right for us as a family and He will prepare us in the way we need to be. So all is well in the Howell house.

I had the strep b test and we went over our birth plan with the doctor. I really hope I test negative for the strep b. If I have it then I will have to be on an iv that administers antibiotics during the labor and that would just not be ideal. What is strep b? Here is what I found online:
Group B strep (GBS) is a kind of bacteria that many people harbor in their intestinal tracts. The bacteria may also inhabit (or "colonize") your vagina as well, and be passed on to your baby during labor and birth.
Approximately 10 to 30 percent of pregnant women carry GBS in the vagina or rectum or surrounding area. While GBS is generally harmless in healthy adults, it may cause stillbirth and serious infections in babies.

My sister Amanda had strep b when she gave birth so she had to be on an iv. It wasn't horrible but it also wasn't what she had wanted. The strange thing about being tested for the GBS is that just because I test positive for it one week doesn't mean I will have it the following week so there is a possibility of testing negative one week and then when I go into labor actually being positive for it and no one knowing. They only test during the 37th week and not at labor. So I'm not sure why the testing is necessary.  Oh well. That's just yet another thing I have no control over so I will just wait and see.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Things will work out

Many weeks ago I made a post about wonderful news. I must now print a retraction on this matter. I had said that the plumber was coming that Monday to start work on the pipes. This however did not happen. There was an issue with getting a hold of him and getting him out here to do the work. Then the landlords had an idea of just putting filters on the faucets instead of fixing the pipes right away and doing them later when it was more of an emergency. Sean called them and explained that it was in fact an emergency already and that the water problem was making the house unlivable. Again its a good thing our landlords are also our friends because they realized that it just needs to be done and they agreed. They said they are going to find a plumber for sure tomorrow. That means *fingers crossed* that work should begin soon. I'm just so anxious to have this whole mess behind us.

In other news: Maternity leave is not working out how I had hope for either. When Sean and I made plans to start trying to get pregnant I looked up the maternity leave offered for my work. I had read (or rather thought I had read) that I would get 6 weeks paid leave after being at my job for a year. So it worked out perfect that we had planned to get pregnant in Nov and have the baby around Aug, thus making it a year since I had been hired at Cushman & Wakefield. After talking with my HR person and the third party company whom the maternity leave is handled, I found out this was not the case. I have to be at my job for a year to get 6 weeks leave with 3 of those weeks being paid at 100%. If I was there for longer than a year then I would get the 6 weeks paid. If I am there less than a year I get 6 weeks of leave with only 1 of those weeks being paid. After finding that out I was really upset and worried. Then I thought ok well 6 weeks pay would have been better but 3 is not bad. Then I was informed that even though my due date is really close to the hire date they won't fudge the number at all. I started work last year on August 9th. So I have to have my baby after August 10th (a year and one day after starting work) to qualify for the 3 weeks of paid leave. If I have Noah before August 10th I only qualify for 1 week of pay. I also have 2 weeks of PTO saved up so I will have that on top of the 6 weeks of leave. That is a comforting fact. So the summary is: Before Aug 10th- 1 week paid, 2 weeks PTO, 5 weeks no pay at all. After Aug 10th- 3 weeks paid, 2 weeks PTO, and 3 weeks no pay at all.  It's not in my hands at all so I just need to trust in the Lord and hope for the best. I know that even if we don't get all the pay we were expecting things are going to work out but it still scares me. We don't really have all that much money saved up so we were really depending on the paid leave. I'm really bummed that I don't get the whole 8 weeks paid. We do have student loans we can use to make ends meet if we need them. I just really had not wanted to have to resort to that. The hormones don't help with me getting through all this stress.  I'm so grateful for Sean and his support and love. With out him I would be even more crazy through this all. I heard this quote at church today and it really helped me put things into perspective and made me have a little more peace with in. I am still working on not worrying and just putting my faith fully in the Lord. I hope one day I'll be better at that. I do know that He takes care of us. It's just putting that faith into action that I have trouble with.

By President Gordon B. Hinckley

It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is.
It all works out. Don’t worry.
I say that to myself every morning.
It will all work out.
Put your trust in God,
and move forward with faith
and confidence in the future.
The Lord will not forsake us.
He will not forsake us.
If we will put our trust in Him,
if we will pray to Him,
if we will live worthy of His blessings,
He will hear our prayers.

Friday, July 15, 2011

One Year of Wedded Bliss, July 13

Here is the low down of what has gone on in our life this past year (not in order at all):

1 baby growing
1 move into our house
5 trillion kisses
1 trip to 6 flags
1 amazing Honeymoon
Many nights out with friends
First fight quickly followed by first make up after a fight
Cuddling and making others around us jealous
Learning how to live with another person
Lots of dishes
Cooking together
Getting bronchitis together
1 talk each in our new Ward
First Christmas together
Temple Visits
Haunted House
Oodles and Oodles of love
First Thanksgiving (when we found out we were pregnant)

This year has been quite wonderful. All the craziness that has gone just seems miniscule when compared to all the blessings. Sean is the constant in my life and for that I am grateful. Every night I go to bed knowing that I am loved and cared for forever. I look forward to all the trillion years to come being with him. Sean is so perfect for me. He is so silly, smart, kind, and loving. He understands me more than I even understand myself. I'm amazed when he knows my feelings before I have to express them vocally to him. Even when I'm ridiculous or crazy he still loves me.
This makes me think of Sean talking to me. He is always calling me a silly woman when I'm upset and it just makes things seem less "the world is going to end serious".

This song is another good one. Its perfect for us. Especially the part when he talks about taking her back to the place where he first met her and purposing. That's what happened with us! Cute right :) Also the baby on the way part. Its just all in all a beautiful song.

A note from the Husband :)  ---I am grateful to have Deana in my life. She helps me to be a better person and keeps me grounded. She gives me direction, and structure in my life. She makes me the happiest man in the world.

To celebrate our anniversary we went to Broadway Palms Dinner Theater and saw Cinderella. It was a lovely night. If you've never been, I highly recommend it. They change the production every month.  The best part is you get food first! They have a buffet dinner before the show and then you get to watch an awesome play.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Bradley Class #10

This was both mine and Sean's favorite class so far. It was so fun and informative. The beginning half of the class we played Jeopardy. The mom's were against the dads (coaches). We were way ahead but then we started to feel bad for them and gave them charity points even though their answers weren't really correct for some of the questions. The questions were about the different stages in labor, contractions, signs of labor, comfort methods, coaches role, and general information. One of the questions was actually an activity. The guys chose it and had to act out what transition in labor was like. One guy played the mom and the rest played coach. It was hilarious. The dad that was playing the mom decided to do it in a southern accent so it was pretty interesting. Haha.

The second half of the class was labor rehearsal. There was different stations with a paper that had 5 position that can be used for labor. Rachel would let us know when a contraction started and then we would practice having a contraction in that position with the husband supporting us and coaching us through them. The positions included: mother in tub with coach leaning over rubbing her back, mom leaning against coach as he leans against wall holding mothers weight, slow dancing position, mom on knees leaning over birth ball with dad behind holding her hips, lunges (used to speed up labor), laboring in a car while dad is driving to hospital, sideline laying on bed or couch, on all fours (used if baby is facing wrong way), squatting. There are a bunch more but I don't remember them all right now.

I feel more and more confident in myself and in Sean each time we do these practices. He does so well with making me feel safe and secure (well most of the time, not when he is saying the same thing over and over, lol) One thing I really think will be helpful in the actual labor was when Sean mentioned that every contraction gets us closer to seeing our little baby Noah. Monday was Rachel's due date but she didn't have him obviously since she was in class last night. She is hoping to go into labor this week. That means class will be on hold for 1 or 2 weeks and then resume. Lets hope I don't have Noah before then.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Breastfeeding Class and my DIY project

Sean and I signed up for a breastfeeding class held at Banner Desert Hospital a couple months ago. I was excited that it was a class for the mom and dad. I love when Sean gets to experience and learn things with me. We already knew a lot of the stuff the instructor went over but it was a good review. We also learned some new things as well and got to watch some videos on latching. Here are some things we learned
  • Breast milk has over 100,000 ingredients in it
  • It takes 60 muscles for the baby to breastfeed and only 6 or 7 muscles to bottle feed
  • 1 year of formula costs about $22,000
  • Partner's who regularly observe infant and mother breastfeeding secrete hormones:            Oxytocin- which is the social hormone, couple/infant bonding. Vasopressin- protective behaviors
  • Breast milk heals skin. So if you have dry nipples after feeding put some milk on them and they will heal better and faster than with just creams
  • She went over breast pumping and going back to work

This is the doll I used to practice holding and positioning. Sean is so lovingly holding him, haha.

DIY Project:
We have 2 closet organizers to store Noah's clothing in the closet. Since having to move everything out of the nursery and washing the clothing again and putting them back in the organizers I've discovered something. It's difficult to get the clothing in and out of the little compartments of the organizer. If we want to be able to pick out which item to have Noah wear we have to pull out all the clothes shift through them and then shove them back into the compartment. This was just not ideal. So my sister Amanda gave me the idea to make little drawers to go in the compartments. Granted we could buy the boxes at target or another store. The problem with that is they are anywhere from $2-$5 or more for just one.

So instead what Amanda had done for her closet was use duct tape and shoe boxes to make drawers. It's the most simple project, yet has great results! I absolutely love them. Here is how I did it:
I got envelope boxes from work (with permission from my boss) for free


  1. Bought lovely zebra print duct tape from fry's for $2.94 a roll
  2. Measured the box and cut tape stripes
  3. Taped the box all the way around
  4. Finished project! I now have drawers for my organizer. 

See, I told you --easiest do it yourself project ever. Despite the easy-ness of the project I am still quite proud  because I saved lots of monies $$ Also these are much more chic than the boxes I could have bought. Thanks to Amanda for giving me the idea.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Cloth Diapering: The Prologue

Yes we are in fact using cloth diapers. I know, I know, poop is gross why do we want to handle it? Well the obvious answer is we don't, but no matter what diapers we use we have to deal with poop. I think what scares most people from cloth diapering is that they are thinking of old cloth diapers and don't know much or anything at all about modern cloth diapers.

This might be the image that comes to mind when someone says cloth diapers. A rectangular piece of cloth folded up and pined with safety pins. Well if that was what cloth diapering was now I wouldn't be using them either. Luckily cloth diapering has come a long way! Modern cloth diapers are much easier to use and look much more cute (This is obviously a big factor right? I mean just wait until you see them!) Even before getting pregnant I knew I wanted to use cloth diapers. My friend Jessica told me about her interest in cloth diapering and got me hooked on a blog where the writer started using them and loved them. Reading her blog convinced me even more of my choice. Sean was on board right away when I told him about the savings. My family on the other hand was much more work to convince. Actually to be honest most of them are still in the process of being convinced of the greatness of cloth. They see the pro's but mostly they focus on the con's. Meaning they don't like that it is more work. The most important thing is that we have my mom on board as well. This was most important person besides Sean and I because she is going to be watching Noah whilst Sean is at school and I am at work during the day. We realize that cloth diapers will be more work than disposables but the pro's out weight that one con. I'll keep you all updated on our adventure in cloth diapering.

There are many reasons to use cloth diapers. Don't believe me? Well here is the complied list.
Reasons to Cloth Diaper:
  1. Save money rather than use disposables. Depending on which cloth diapering system you decide to use, you can save approximately $1,500 per child
  2. Cloth diapers are better for the environment
  3. Modern cloth diapers actually leak less than disposables. They are fitted better to the baby. 
  4. Babies potty train earlier. Because of the cloth babies are more aware of their wet diapers
  5. Less diaper rash. The rate of diaper rash has increased from 7% to over 78% since 1955 (when cloth diapers were used)
  6. Cloth diapers are just so darn cute!

Want proof that using cloth diapers really does save you money? Here is a chart comparing cost of disposables to cost of cloth.This is based off the diapers we bought. The savings vary depending on which diapers you chose to get and which accessories you buy as well. The accessories we bought were: diaper sprayer, two wet bags.

Cost of Cloth Diapers

Cost of Accessories

Cost of Washing

Total Cloth Diapering

Cost of Disposables


Cost of washing and drying 1 load (water & electric cost) is estimated to be $0.50 Plus detergent (Tide bought in bulk) costs $0.08/load.  Total cost of laundry is based on washing one load every 1.5 days for 3 years.
Disposable Diaper Details: Number of diapers needed based off of 12 diapers per day for the first 3 months, then 8 diapers per day until 3 years old.  This gives 9,000 total disposable diapers for one baby.  Average cost of a disposable according to Consumer Reports is 26.5 cents, giving $2,385. Diaper genie inserts cost 3 cents/diaper, adding $226.80.  1 disposable wipe/diaper at 3 cents/wipe adds another $226.80.  Total cost, excluding gas, extra diaper rash cream, washing baby's clothes more often due to poop leaking, extra trash collection fees, etc.: $2,838.60  

There are so many choices of which cloth diapers to use. Some families use exclusively one type while others use many types. Sean and I have decided that we would like to stick with just one type to begin with and then when we get used to the one we might branch out to one other type that we liked as well.  There are many brands of cloth diapers, just google it and you will come up with a plethora of results. All have their pro's and con's just like disposables. The brand we are using is Sprout Change.

See how cute! They are reversible so it's like two in one. The other thing I love about these diapers is they are one size fits all. They can be used from newborn all the way up to potty training. How in the world does one diaper do that? I'll tell you! It has elastic on the sides and the top so you can adjust them to fit perfectly to the baby. The elastic has small button holes so you can adjust them accordingly.
This is another image of the diaper opened.